..Yeah.. A little something different for a minute. Ya'll should check out this man's music ..and not because I know him personally but because its legitimate fire..-_- .. check it out and let me know if I'm lyin.. peeeaaccee..

This uneasiness is..

I'm lost on so many levels..

Religiously

Physically

and mentally

I don't know where I'm at..

everything just looks so slow but I walk so fast..

noneoftheless real

I wish I was numb

I wish my thoughts were dumbed down to the smallest idea

not miserable but confused

I ran against time but I also watched it

and as metronomic as it is I always seem to end up back at the starting line

I'm lost on so many levels

A rebel for my cause

but for some reason I can't free myself from these chains that I've fought so hard to break

..I've got a looseleaf thumb..lol..... everyone I touch turns into cardboard

fallen over and breathless ..

...still waiting for their reply.... .

not miserable but confused

I'm carryin a torch upside down in a river

splinters bruise my hand

but I can't feel em'...

blood trickles down.. the burn reminds me of venom

...dragged through the agony.. eventually it'll kill . .

but if it hasn't yet yet then it probably never will...

still standing...

....NEW WEBSITE COMING SOON...

...Gonna Switch things up a Bit... ...Khidaismoving.com..lol....

but I'll post the link when i've settled in....

Peace....

..Letter to my unknown.. ....not done*

...... ...It's not that your shadow turns me on..

It's simple that I'm just infatuated with the idea that you exist.

Soft whispers proceed a kiss

lines shade your figure and the outline takes its place but what good is it If I cant see your face.....

Stuck on an unknown flight to the same expectance.. same girl same questions.. same eyes same complexion same smile..... I'll keep that

.. Its no longer me to believe I'll 'hit' that if I show you my six pack no wonder the real women get back .. searching for realness inside of a factory... Mattel and Hasbro...

.. ..

...Freestyle.... ..off the head off the Mac onto the Blogisphere.... enjoy... .... soon they'll be a track for it ..-_-

..I'm thinkin I like Lynn

got me with a slight grin.

the thought hit me like lightnin

the smile is brighter

got me right then

my black pen followin preceedin to where i'm writin

.. thoughts about her

soft as a pillow but hard its frightnin

have to stop now but what is the use of fightin

wonder if i tell her would she be up to likin

the fact that i spoke or the fact that i had recite this

that man on the side 'll be tight ..

there's the light then..

brightness flowed up inside of the bulb

its like i look for trouble breakin all of its laws

stealin the shine from someone else thats involved

i'm lucky but not in love...

Maybe i'm stingy

or maybe i'm that far above

that standard for respect for someone that i dug

no diggin i'm grinnin but seriously opposed to the mindstate that i had grew from

so how would i approach this chick

while walkin her to class spittin some repulsive shit?

nah...

i rather poetically propose this hit

what i already know just add to it no bogusness

but would it ever work?

i'll never know til i try but when the star and the sky meet thats when it'll fly by

time doesnt wait for noone so why wouldnt i try

what doesnt kill doesnt is a lie

but i holdin on nine lives....

(chorus).....

Delete Me!!!!!!! ...please?

by Jerry Nizzy'Khida Mackey on Tuesday, October 12, 2010 at 9:38pm

Your note has been created.

..heh.... I don't need to write this down for this to take relevance.. I call you a bitch cause of your facade and all its relevance... I wish I could spit a flame from miles away but i doubt you would feel it in ya climate.. I'm heartless so I don't mind it if you try to lie to my face ...To be honest I was never blinded.. I don't subliminal name call .. you feelin special? guess who and I'll answer just to let you know...

Rough Draft ..Nizzy - "I Promise"

DON'T TAKE ME SERIOUS!! lol... i'm just testin the waters.... this is my first project... enjoy

ps: The instrumental is by Charles Hamilton called "Wild Misinformation"

...Words Spoken by Wale......

This is aint all great but a mere portion of a semi-important life
Far from a complaint, but a mere look at the present showin you the changes that I made
The proverbial lemonade that I made
I made my mistakes, you see life's lemons often times come in a abundance,
in conjunction with the pressure that we're under
underrated some would say, hated, and some say it's the things I say or how I say em.
And I admit, in this race I tend to struggle to relate in words
It's like I'm an alien who alienates by the herd, so as far as being heard
I guess I gotta wait, deprived by the station's eye
Wale, more times than not, am not for whom the air waves
Thank God for the free thinkers, for you keep me in mind,
in this state of mind that I'm in, for you keep me in the race with the baton that yall give
and they hype beat, street wear, Versace and Vutton that I'm in
and really don't matter unless yall comin with
no days off, may we rip the face of the whole game off,
I'm gon say it to yall, I'm gonna put my faith in yall when I don't understand me
They say im runnin hip-hop but I'd rather unify with yall then stampede
And lastly for everybody who doubted I can't live without you, please
Continue to inspire the fire that is my re-dedication to greatness yall
Paint a picture to A.D. to freestyles to famous songs we out 'chere
Unforgettable gestures, unmeasurable effort, to pleasure the masses with impeccable work ethic
Let's get it, I go hard, no days off

.........Minute Interlude Please...

....I'm not Charles Hamilton....

..but I am Khida' the Hedgehog........ Rings I race for... the kind that doesnt blind no green... not to get mistaken.... the pace makes it worth it but the speed is that need to get ya momentum goin...... No slowin down for me.... I'm past reality and now I'm floatin on cloud nine... past 10 and I'm on to the next one.... This Nerd in my head but quite absurd as I am when I am holdin the pen........

....Powerless....

Succumbed to the power of the eyes

. . .a slideshow depicted with glances

It's the most easiest to capture. . . whether its the frame or the passion

An attraction of this magnitude can only be matched

with the same gaze of acknowledgement. . .

I'm silenced . . but the hollowness in my chest makes sounds when I'm walkin

in a way I'm kind of out of it . . .

Succumbed to the motion of this . . .

To the risen thought . . .

from the forgotten . . . sort of blocked from an opportunity,

Approaching with a sense of invincibility

No lesser than the Man with the "S" on his chest

. . so that means the cryptonite is the Eyes. . . .

Still. .

.I'm Feelin it.

by Jerry Nizzy'Khida Mackey on Monday, September 13, 2010 at 12:46pm

...lets see.

Always powerless to this obsession.... an even greater aggression but this tension's got my chest feelin sore..

It's an old story .. the same plot but this shit has got to stop or it'll eat me alive..

I'm wrestlin with ... with ?

I stay wonderin .. as always i'm mumblin but the words never come out.

I'm always called paranoid

but lately its been clearer as this paragraph appears in front of me just like a mirror

it seems that feelin dissappeared the same time that she appeared

the same bullshit feelin ate my stomach lining...

Paranoid?.. intuition..?

how do you claim the independent?

how do you write a sentence with no ink?

a long distance width could match but wil never ever happen.

A long chain is the same as a short rope..

you can hang with the same pain ..its all on the same throat

To the Miss that i claimed ..

now its Murder that she wrote.. its always been smoke now its Mist

Waaay too much thought on someone who's really that far out..

there's a chain link on my stomach .. but my tongue is on fire..

..Officially done .. signed and sealed by Khida'

So long 'Rose' .. It was nice to finally meet ya

Too bad I'll no longer need ya.

Nizzy'....

.. MadVillainy of The Nerd'........

..A Real recess of that blackened thought

Set free but

tossed in the same cage that Lion was Caught....

...

Unimaginable...

A Power switch ,... I'm the Animal

A Beast but

the evil Reads then Declines

... .. Talent is Talons

I move quick

My minds in Patterns

My style is erratic

Steady flippin because my Brain has inhabited Saturn

... Engaged to the Mist so

Everynow and then I get a Kiss from a Cool Breeze.....

........................................

..Random FRstyle...

.... Maybe that is my Problem..
Im robbin myself of my own damn Smile
Did I not learn anything

Im not Miserable...
Im simply symbolizin wateva was in my Father's eyes the way he rolled...
I'm different...

I stay Blazin cause I tuned to my own Station...Im done with this Gloom shit...lol...
its Crazy to stay Dwellin on the past....
...but Even Stupider to attempt to Dwell on the Future...
Obviously I'm bein conditioned ...put ya anxiousness aside and live
..that way Ill be relaxed...
This shit isnt too Farfetched from a Project so I fall back and close my eyes...
..The Lines dont run my Life....
its in the clutch of the Hand that gives Definition to the Paper...

oooowee...im back..lol..

...Ambitions of Kisses ...

Why does this Love Keep Me Constricted
at the same time
every sentence adds a piece to the puzzle
I know that If I can't figure myself out. .
Whatever's written is my analyzation
I crave for the taste and then brace for the pavement
I'm always dropped off on a sense of contempt
my heartfelt passions keeps my hand goin and my pen flowin. .
I leave myself vulnerable when I feel for the best
tho I always get left behind with worst
unfair and unimaginable. .
I lust for the Tangible. . .
I yearn for the sense that one day I will have it. .
. . . .
There's really no way to end this
cause in my Mind all that exists are sentence. .
. .I'm tempted. . .
The Kiss keeps me tempted. .
Forever's what is missin. . .

..Tryna get Somewhere?

. . . when my vision deteriate is the moment my eyes widen
Reality leaves me incomplete
Didn't know 2% could feel so heavy
I'm 98 with weight to make any legs tremble
I withstand . .
Still standin
for the reason I don't know yet . .
From exhausting Prognostication to self deprivation
My eyes stay dry
but the Black inside keeps my Heart beating
Reasons unknown keep me breathing
I'm still reaching. .
til I recognize the prospective
the same method. . .
No checklist. .
I'll check out with it. .

..More than a Taste...

I always seem to get a taste of it. .
as soon as the clouds clear I'm back to chasing
Nowadays I wear a Metal T
No longer a Heart on my sleeve
Tho its even Harder for Me. .
As the Harder my Heart beats the pounds don't weigh me down but leave dents and red streaks. . .
I'm a Pace runner in this game. . steady losin. .
Negative scores no high points
steady lookin straight to the sky
but bein deprived of my wants. .
. . . A Love is a Shadow. . . .
. . To acknowledge and Understand that is a BATTLE. .
. . .
Why do I always beat myself up?
. .at the same time I'm pickin myself up. .
Its impossible to lift myself up. . .no strength if you can't find it. .
. .in your Heart is where You're reminded. .
I Need a Gain in my Life. .
. . . .I'm pacin. .
. .I'm pacin. .
. . .
. .

....Nothin Lesser...more than Better...noneoftheless

Never mind the content

The lines....these......

...Discrepancies are timeless

As hard as it is to stretch ya limits

'Women' are far away

This kind of stuff makes me wonder

As hard as it is to envision and Angel.....

its even harder when that Angel's got your number

No hugs no Kisses ...its not enough

so i got smart....

...I'm embracin the Heat so we glowin up.....